However, when she found herself alone in her room for a few minutes - the last day this on which she was ever to enter it - she knelt down and prayed. She tried to pray to God, but it was her husband who really had her supplication. Her idolatry of this man was such that she herself almost feared it to be ill-omened. She was conscious of the notion expressed by Friar Laurence: 'These violent delights have violent ends.' It might be too desperate for human conditions - too rank, too wild, too deadly.
不过,有一会儿她看见只有自己一个人在房间里——这是她住在这儿的最后一天,以后也不会再来了——于是她跪在地上,为自己祈祷。她想向上帝祈祷,不过她真正恳求的是她的丈夫。她对这个男人如此崇拜,这使她一直害怕这不是什么好的兆头。她知道劳伦斯神父所说的一句话:“这些疯狂的欢乐都会有疯狂的结果。”①她对他的崇拜太不要命了,不是人的条件能够接受的——太厉害了、太疯狂了、太要人的命了。

'O my love, my love, why do I love you so!' she whispered there alone; 'for she you love is not my real self, but one in my image; the one I might have been!'
“啊,我的爱人,我的爱人,为什么我要这样地爱你!”她独自在房间里低声说;“因为你爱的她并不是真正的我自己,而只是另外一个长得和我一模一样的人;是一个我有可能是而现在不是的另外一个人。”

Afternoon came, and with it the hour for departure. They had decided to fulfil the plan of going for a few days to the lodgings in the old farmhouse near Wellbridge Mill, at which he meant to reside during his investigation of flour processes. At two o'clock there was nothing left to do but to start. All the servantry of the dairy were standing in the red-brick entry to see them go out, the dairyman and his wife following to the door. Tess saw her three chamber-mates in a row against the wall, pensively inclining their heads. She had much questioned if they would appear at the parting moment; but there they were, stoical and staunch to the last. She knew why the delicate Retty looked so fragile, and Izz so tragically sorrowful, and Marian so blank; and she forgot her own dogging shadow for a moment in contemplating theirs.
已经到了下午,这也是他们动身的时候。他们早就决定了他们的计划,在井桥磨坊的附近有一座古老的农舍,他们在那儿租了住处,打算在那儿住几天,同时克莱尔也想在那儿对面粉的生产过程进行一番研究。到了下午两点钟的时候,他们已经收拾好,只准备动身了。奶牛场的工人都站在红砖门房那儿为他们送行,奶牛场老板和老板娘一直把他们送到门口。苔丝看见和她同房的三个伙伴靠墙站成一排,心情忧郁地把头低着。先前她很有一些怀疑,她们会不会在他们动身的时候出来为他们送行,但是她们都来了,尽力克制着、忍受着,一直坚持到最后。她知道娇小的莱蒂为什么看上去那样柔弱,伊茨为什么那样伤心痛苦,玛丽安又为什么那样麻木。她在那儿一心想着她们的痛苦,倒暂时把萦绕在自己心头的一块心病忘了。

She impulsively whispered to him--
她一时受到感情的驱使,就低声对她的丈夫说——

'Will you kiss 'em all, once, poor things, for the first and last time?'
“真是几个可怜的女孩子,你能不能把她们每个人都吻一下,第一次也是最后一次行吗?”

Clare had not the least objection to such a farewell formality - which was all that it was to him - and as he passed them he kissed them in succession where they stood, saying 'Good-bye' to each as he did so. When they reached the door Tess femininely glanced back to discern the effect of that kiss of charity; there was no triumph in her glance, as there might have been. If there had it would have disappeared when she saw how moved the girls all were. The kiss had obviously done harm by awakening feelings they were trying to subdue.
克莱尔对这种告别的方式一点也没有表示反对的意思——这对他来说只不过是一种告别的形式罢了——他从她们身边走过去的时候,就一个接一个地把她们都吻了一下,在吻她们的时候,嘴里一边说着“再见”。他们走到门口的时候,女性的敏感又使苔丝回过头去,想看一看那个同情的吻产生了什么样的效果;她的目光里没有得意的神情,而她的目光里本应该有这种神气的。即使她的目光里有得意的神气,当她看到那些姑娘们如何感动的时候,她也会清除掉这种神气的。很明显,他的吻是伤害了她们了,因为这一吻又唤醒了她们一直在努力抑制的感情。

①见莎士比亚的悲剧《罗密欧与朱丽叶》第二幕第六场。